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November 24, 2025LifeThe less I communicate the happier I am for it. And I think, the less I communicate the better I am understood? Or maybe rather, the less I communicate verbally. For someone who writes ‘blogposts’ I seem to really suck with words. Every day is filled with regrets but somehow it gets easier and easier […] […]
November 17, 2025LifeWhen i left my apartment this morning I still saw the moon hanging on the sky. A perfect crescent, slightly resembling a hammock, despite the rough edges I’m sure I could find a comfortable position there. The walk starts out cold but the movement soon warms me up, its getting slightly slippery due to ice […] […]
November 3, 2025LifeWhen you stop and look around you. This life is full of shit, shit, shit everywhere. I think of tight metal wire tightly hugging my skin until it finally cuts through. Always liked the idea of garrote’s. Cats invaded my dreams, I’m doing the opposite of what i should be doing in my circumstances, self […] […]
October 27, 2025LifeAm I wrong, did I make it all up? Why would I make it up? But even if I did not make it up (ex. believed it to be valid at the time) it doesn’t make it valid now does it? Did I stop thinking that way? Or believing it? I don’t know… It all […] […]
October 23, 2025LifeI like (taking) specific type of photos. Low f number to have a nice focus on the subject with some bokeh behind. Slight vignette to create a more personal (slightly oppressive) feeling. Like being in a space just for you and the subject. Low saturation, so that the focus is on the details and shapes […] […]
October 21, 2025LifeGot a new boss at work, they seem to put high hopes on me, giving me opportunities to climb… Mateusz from 10 years ago would be elated. Mateusz from 5 years ago would be happy. Mateusz from today is… annoyed. Chasing salary increases which come anyway rather based on your tenure and still can’t catch […] […]
October 20, 2025LifeI somehow survived and emerged with a clear conscience and head. Apart from Mushy displaying the usual Mushy behaviour things are relatively harm and stress free. Its fascinating when you observe humans being influenced by their brain cocktail without ever being able to acknowledge the fact that that it happens. Wish I’ve had the chance […] […]
October 19, 2025LifeHumans are ugly creatures, despicable, deceitful and full of motives unknown even to them. I think I’ve had my fill for a while, i forgot this happens. Its been some time since I’ve tried cracking my shell a bit so i forgot the world outside it is a scorching hellscape. Photography has been healing a […] […]
October 16, 2025LifeHow can I be so emotionally blunt and emotional at the same time? I can be delivered the most shocking information and not feel a thing and then I can have tears streaming down my cheek reacting to something mundane. I guess you would call that unstable? But with how most people perceive the word […] […]
October 12, 2025LifeI feel like plastic would be better, flexible yet strong with a smooth finish to make sure every crevice is taken care of. Sitting on a couch, painfully aware of every twitch and hiccup of my internal workings, purposefully breathing, purposefully closing and opening eyes. Wrapped around a tree with a good view of the […] […]
October 9, 2025GamesIt’s the first one but bigger. The end. No but seriously, its practically the same game but made by Obsidian. They tweaked all the systems, put upgrading your gear on actual center stage of the game, expanded the scope, raised the stakes… in general ADDED STUFF to what already existed in Kotor I. You can […] […]